My Little Heart Speaks

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

LOOK, I'M SPECIAL...

i EVen HaVe "My Street"

Credits to Prakash for reminding me that I'm special by snapping this picture and dedicated this entry just for me...

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p/s: I thank God everyday for a friend like you...

Thursday, August 2, 2007

It has been raining these days. In the mornings. The best part of all is that I don't have to wake up like other school children, college/ uni students and working people at this hour, I don't have to go through a wet morning and of course traffic jams everywhere.

The alarm clock went RRRiiinngggg!!! I didn't bother. I hate that alarm clock, anyway. Then I heard my mother disarmed the alarm system, switched off the air-cond in every room and off she went waking up my lil' sister and lil' brother. I opened my eyes, looking at the ceiling and then staring blank into space. I can hear my brother and sister rushing here and there. preparing themselves for school.

I wrapped myself with my comforter. It is so cold. I can see raindrops from the window behind me. I can hear thunder striking here and there. I want to go back to sleep but I can't. I began wasting my entire morning thinking.. thinking..

About what??

About my life. About me.

The beginning of this year was terrible. I started this year with the feeling of hatred, anger and depressed. So many unhappy events happened. I feel so pathetic and i symphatized myself. In the year 2006, i remembered me being really joyful. Really. This year, I cried a lot. I shed pails of tears. I cried my heart out. Like Justin Timberlake's song title " Cry Me A river"...(maybe not a river, but a stream.. LOL)

Only God knows how much burden, hurt and insecure i've felt. I remembered telling myself how terrible my life is. I look at things negatively. I feel so low of myself. I asked God Why?

Seven months have passed. These seven months may be a blink of an eye to many of you readers but not me. As i looked back from the starting of this year till now, I'm starting to feel kind of proud of myself. In these seven months, I fell into a deep hole, hurt myself badly and cried a lot. However, I've learnt to stay strong, stand up again, be positive and try my best to climb out of that hole. God played a major role in helping me to grow up and rise up.

I remembered Pastor Evonne prayed for me during one of the altar call. At that time before the altar call, I was still very down and negative about stuff. I didn't even wanna talk to God. I was angry at Him. The only reason i went out for the altar call was because I realized God was my last hope. She prayed for me and the only sentence i could hear from her other than her prayer was "Kimberly, God wants to share your burden." Right after that, I can feel all the burden and heaviness in my heart was lifted up.

I went through these seven months with patience, faith and hope.

I saw sunlight beaming through the same window behind me. Wow, I've been thinking for an hour plus. It's drizzling now. I rolled to my right and look down on to the floor. I saw my Purpose Driven Life book right beside my bible, notebook and Murdoch and RMIT booklets and pamphelets I've been looking through for the past one week. They are all right on top of my new pile of jeans i've bought to start off my degree. I've been reading this Purpose Driven Life book for the past nights. It is a big thing for Canaan Church and I gotta be serious about reading this book for 40 days. It is not an accident that I come across this book but it was planned by God. I love this book and I've learnt a lot about what God thinks. All the problems I'm going through is a test from God. It is through His grace that we will go through these problems because He wants us to pass this test.

Seven months have passed. Through His grace, I've graduated with a Diploma. I've completed a milestone and have another milestone to reach for which is my degree. So what if there is a financial constraint? God will provide. Things will get better. The thing here is, my problems didn't change neither get better. The only thing that has changed is actually me. I will be cheerful and joyful like i used to be. God granted me Friends that I can't thank Him enough.

Just by hearing them laugh, joke around and monkey around makes me cherish and love them even more.

Whenever i need a friend to give me "Everything is going to be fine HUG" they are always there.

I feel so blessed to have them. Each and every single one of them.

Being strong inside doesn't mean that some of you can assume that I'm feelingless. I'm still very fragile.. vulnerable. I'm trying my best to stay as strong as possible. I still allow myself to cry once in a while.

I've boxed everything up. Every single memory.

You know, sometimes it is even harder to love than to hate. Hating can be tiring. Why punish yourself by being so angry at someone who might not even remember that he had hurt you once? But, loving can be as tiring as that. I don't even know what i'm saying... Maybe what i'm trying to say is pouring LOVE to someone who doesn't deserve your LOVE is much more tiring than anything else. It is so ironic to be in dreamland or fairytale land today and back to the reality world tomorrow. And as cliche as it sounds, they say time does heal but we just do not know when. Stop saying things like if you want to heal, just heal... it is not that easy.

Looking at the time displayed on my handphone screen. It says it's time to get up, you pig!!

HAHA..

Well, it has stopped raining.. finally.. the same with my heart's cry/ cry of my heart.. it has stopped. Everytime it rains, it just remind me of my hurts and scars.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

SIMPSONIZE ME!!!

Credits to http://www.simpsonizeme.com/index.php

Below are pictures of me...

Enjoy folks!!

Me in green top (turtleneck with long sleeves), matching ear-rings, and medium long hair...

Me with a blue top with hood, matching ear-ring, with a matching blue cap(left).

Baby Kimmies

One wearing casual wear(left) while the other wears a dress...

I don't know about you boys and girls, but i find myself looking really aunty-ish, old-ish and baby-ish all at the same time... Laugh out loud!!

-words can really bring me down-

Friday, July 20, 2007

I got tagged by Amanda some dinosaur years ago.. I better do this before I forget. Anyway, thx for tagging me, yea...

1. Colour of most of clothes I own:Black and pink.
2. Number of pillows I sleep with:One but i also sleep on my boasters, 2 big and one small.
3. Where are you right now?:In the living room, lappie on the coffee table, watching Disney Channel- Shuriken School
4. What were you doing at 12am last night?:Driving home from a graduation BBQ @ Lee San's place
5. How old will you be in 10 years?:30. OMG...
6. What do you think you’ll be doing in 15 years from now?: err.. i'll be 35.. hopefully, I'm happily married by then with two kids, have a stable job with average income, can support my mum & dad, independent woman and still serving God in church..
7. Do you have braces?:Nope, thank God!!
8. Are you paranoid?: Who would admit that they are? I don't know, maybe i am to some people in some situation.
9. Describe your wallet:Pink and red, XOXO.
10. Your alarm clock?:i keep up with emerging technologies, like the hanphone..
11. Your hair?:unhealthy because itz kinda light brown in colour, naturally. straight and not too long and not too short.
12. Toothbrush: green in colour, plan to change.. and yea, it's a device used to brush your teeth.
13. What color are your eyes?:like most asians, dark brown/black
14. Unforgettable enemy?: the devil...
15. First play/musical/performance?: wow, tht was when i was in standard one i think.. anyway, not to brag, but i'm always on stage for performances when i was young...
16. Last movie seen in cinema?:Transformers..
17. Last person you yelled at?:not yell, but curse!! Don't mind me, but i hate man who is not a gentleman at all.
18. Last crush:my last crush ended last year.
19. Last shoes worn: sandals frm jukebox.. it's comfy and cheap..
20. Last ice-cream eaten:Last sunday, just a lick on a cornetto..
21. Last word written by hand: the word 'pelajar' on Lee San's sister's survey form last night.
22. Last time you wanted to die:I never say i want to die, but i'm going to die...
23. When was the last time you went out at night?:Last night.
24. What was the last song you heard?:Mariah Carey & Boys 2 Men- One Sweet Day.
25. What is about the opposite sex?:They are really selfish. Not all.
26. What do you want to do now?:Go shower, later going out again.
27. What’s the first thing you ate this morning?:Chicken Rice. regretted.
28. What’s the one song you never get over?: Precious by Ito Yuna.
29. Fav day of the week:Friday because the next day is a saturday^v^
30. Who’s your favorite idol at the moment?:Thou shall not worship any idol... ^^ really, no lar..

-dinosaurs wears pink panties-

-i'm crapping..again-

-UPDATED-

aLL of us taking care of our 'babies' on the stove

Prawns and clams with white wine

after our FEAST

Barbeque @ Lee San's Place

19th July 2007

Finally, we have all graduated from our two years 4 months diploma course. Yipee!!! So, Lee San planned this BBQ at her place and I'm invited..

It was raining heavily that night.. While I was driving, I was wondering how are we going to have a BBQ with the rain pouring like cats and dogs. The last time we had a BBQ at my place, it was also raining.. what a coincidence. Is God against BBQ?? Lee San said "God loves us, God loves us, He will not be so bad." We were all pratically singing Rain Rain go away.. bla bla bla bla... Laugh!!

Don't worry, we have shades.

I reached there at like 845pm or 9pm, and they have just started. Many of the guests are already there.. Yipee.. I'm the VIP. VIPs are usually the latest to arrive, what.. nyeh..nyeh..

Here's the list of BBQ-ers :

Lee San ( the host)

Tan Shi Han (the big reaction girl)

Ivan (the not 70kg but 80 kg guy)

Iginn ( the genie in the bottle, lol)

Sito Wai Ling (iginn's gf)

Wai Kit (host's bf)

Terrence (lover of the self -made aluminium wok)

and of course,

8. Me, Kimberly.. the VIP sakai:p

Here, it is the menu..:

Marshmallows with chocolate dippings

bacons

pork chop

sweet potatoes

baby potatoes

oysters

french toast bread with herbs (like italiannies)

mutton

nuggets

sausages

prawns

pari fish

clam

chicken wings

realized anything missing?

...

NO DRINKS!!

We were wishing for ice water or ice-cream all the way.. Haha..

The BBQ was a great fun. A gathering of a few fun people, competing with each other on our funny sarcasm can really tickle our funny bones!! We grilled almost everything. Experimented on our own made recipes. Made a lot of noise. Setting aluminium foils on flames.

We ended the night with singing a birthday song for the three birthday girls. Wai Ling's birthday is on the 21st July, Lee San's on the 3rd August, Shi Han's on the 6th August. This BBQ is to have a farewell for Shi Han also. She is leaving for Singapore.

I said my goodbyes to everyone. Somehow, all my 2years memories just kept flashing back. They are my true friends. Had lots of memories through our whole diploma course.

- thanks for inviting me for this 'graduation' BBQ-

p/s: thx terrence for accompanying me home all the way.

Friday, July 6, 2007

Can you tell where the drinks and buns are from?

okay, okay.. you've got it!!

Starbucks!!

Rebecca and I went to One Utama, PJ to give a surprise visit to a friend who is working in one of the shops there. We can't resist the temptation to step into Starbucks. We've saved some $$ for Starbucks for the past week, and this is our reward.

Okay, this post is not about Starbucks though. (i find the picture above very tempting :P)..It is about a supposedly Girls' Night Out.

We were all supposed to gather and have dinner one friday night. However, the boys didn't manage to appear. Laugh!! Nevermind.. we girls can go on with the dinner without the boys!! Girls Rulez!!

Dinner @ BBQ Plaza, One UtAma

29th June 2006

Green Tea. You can order it either a hot or cold one. Cheap and not gassy..(whatever tht means)

It's just the three of us. So we ordered for one pax. Therefore, you only have beefs and a lot of cabbage~~

Like what i've mentioned.. Lots of veggie!!
Above is the ingredient to really tasty soup!!

These are the ingredients to... (please scroll down)

THIS!! This is the sos.. DELICIOUS!! jUST mix the ingredients of ginger, lemon and chili, then, use whatever you have and 'whisk' it clockwise for 30 sec.

Haha.. i sound like i'm baking...

Look at that 'pig fat' on top of the 'stove'. It is to make sure the whole surface is oily so that the raw food you wanna cook later won't stick to the surface.

tempting?? Haha!! I'm hungry now~~

After 30 minutes or so...

WE MUST BE REALLY HUNGRY...

Enough of food piccies...

Time for some human piccies...

Okay, yes.. I AM HUNGRY!!!

aND Thirsty...

Rebecca... stop aiming the camera at me...

This reminds me.. Where are her pictures? I remembered playing with that camera a lot:P

Before we depart....

More piccies of course!!

Camwhoring is not a sin,wei~~

We took so many shots just to fit in the three of us.. Not bad though!!

Yea, ME Flirting with the BBQ PLAZA dRAGON..

-thx for the piccies, Becky-

with love,

kimmy

Monday, July 2, 2007

TRANSFORMERS

GSC ONE UTAMA

28th June 2007

Special thanks to Prakash's friend for the tix. Also thanks to Joshua for inviting me for the movie. The parking search was terrible, i nearly gave up. Luckily I didn't. I prayed desperately for a parking space...and Amen... Pop!! A car reversed out right in front of me!! (after 45 minutes of rounding that wonderful parking lot).

Transformers. Never expect it to be nice. I was so wrong!!! It is a really great blockbuster!! I've never seen anything like this or similar to it in any other movie. It's jaw-dropping, extravagant action movie!! I was so into the whole thing although I sat there for like 2 hours 30 minutes or so. I nearly cried when they tortured Bumblebee. I love the graphics, the surrounding sound effect. It is so cool!!! There are quite a number of scenes that are funny, like Sam Witwicky's parents. LOL!!!

Length: 140 min
Rated: PG-13
Distributor: DreamWorks Pictures

Starring: HUMANS: Shia LaBeouf, Megan Fox, Tyrese Gibson, Anthony Anderson, Rachel Taylor, Jon Voight, Josh Duhamel, Bernie Mac, John Turturro, Julie White, Amaury Nolasco GIANT FREAKIN' ROBOTS: Optimus Prime (voice Peter Cullen), Megatron (voice Hugo Weaving), Bumblebee (Mark Ryan), Ironhide (voice Jess Harnell), Barricade (voice Jess Harnell), Ratchet (voice Robert Foxworth), Bonecrusher (Jimmie Wood), Jazz (voice Darius McCrary), Starscream (voice Charlie Adler), Frenzy (voice Reno Wilson)

Directed by Michael Bay
Produced by Stephen Spielberg, Tom DeSanto, Don Murphy, Lorenzo di Bonaventura, Brian Goldner
Written by Roberto Orci, Alex Kurtzman