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My Conversation with Jeremy So & Melissa Hiew...

It all started when Jeremy went MIA (Missing In Action)

Reason : He went "pang-sai" ( big business in the loo)

Laugh with me...

Shot with unknown

LOL...!!!

cont'

Shot with unknown

Conclusion: Shit comes in all shapes and sizes.. and oh yeah, taste too...

( coffee, chocolate or milo)

(must be watery, though)

-suicide conversation-

nope.. i don't find it disgusting.. haha

Assignments oh Assignments...

This semester's assignments are filled with stress, worries, shocked, fun, excitement, panic, insults and a lot of patience and tolerance. I will update you guys about my very last two assignments for my whole 2 years and 4 months diploma course.

First subject : Introduction to Business

Due date: 20th June 2007

Assignment given : 23rd May 2007

Really sit down and start : 17th June 2007 ( sweat...?)

Leader: Kimberly Lee (ME???) anyway, i just found out that i'm a leader on the 14th June 2007

So, the assignment on this subject is about doing a research on a company. Their strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, threats and also their marketing environment such as socially, legally and etc.

When i found out that i'm the leader of the group, i started to panic. It's already the 14th, 6 more days to go and we do not even have a company in mind. Die!! The most important of all, we have to interview a manager from that company as well. I can't be doing my dad's company again due to some circumstances. So, i finally asked for a group meeting, decide on a company and delegate the tasks.

Being a group leader supposedly should be easy. Just let the others do the job. All i need to do is to make sure everyone knows what to do and compile them into an assignment. That was what i thought it would be.

My nightmare has just started...

You see, my groupmates are mostly from thee mainland China. Other local groupmates are Chinese literate. They are all very cooperative, no doubt about that. However, there are a lot of editings to do. A LOT!! I'm not discriminating, it's just that correcting grammar, vocabulary shouldn't be in my job description. We are college students already. English should be one of our strong language. I some how felt like i'm correcting some primary school kids english. At least they tried, though. These girls from China, i give them credits for that.

I did not sleep well for the last few nights. Editing, researching, typing, compiling and many more tasks. I've learnt to multi-task.

On the 19th, that night, my flame was ferocious.I was so pissed off!!

I know that every group member did one part of the assignment. A few of them did two parts. I did 4 parts and this exclude editing everyone's parts and compiling the whole assignment. I'm not pissed off because of this.

Let me explain.

A few of them knew that i was doing almost everything. So, they were kind enough to volunteer to do the easiest task ever. I will not state what task was it. If you are curious, you can always ask me, but not here.

So, on the 19th, that wonderful night, i've received the documents they voluntereed to do. I opened the file and... My anger went to the top of my head!! If you were beside me, you can see the stim above my head. My eyes blazing with orange fire!! You can hear me curse like i never before!!

It's like 3am, i'm dead sleepy and they can send me 'their tasks'. I was thankful that they voluntereed to do that easy task, i didn't expect that they gave me that kind of shit at 3am in the morning.

Because of the shit they gave me, I have to sleep at 5am in the morning to re-do everything. That's not the end yet... My printer..my colour printer choose to DIE at this crucial time!! More cursing!!!

And guess what? on the next day i have 8am class.

Yes, you're right. I can't bring myself to wake up that very morning and yes, STILL CURSING ALL THE WAY even in my dreams.

The next day afternoon, i went to this printing shop to print my colour pages like the coverpage, KDU's logo, appendices etc. I went in and saw lots of printer, many kinds of printer, different sizes of papers. I guess those are for engineers. So, i was waiting for the lady/owner to entertain me. Her maid/worker went into her room and asked her to come out.

Went she came out, I FAINTED!!!

Okay, joking.. LOL...

I was SHOCKED to see her with MUD MASK all over her face and it's dark brown in colour. LOL LOL... she made me laugh my heart out!!

And my, the printing costs me RM18 for 10 COLOURED pages. It's expensive to me-lar..

Went to college after that. All my group members waited eagerly for me. nO.. The Assignment actually. I showed them. Well, i have no comments overall. I just hope that all my effort in this, we would get satisfactory results-lar..

So, below is the cover page of the Introduction to Business Assignment:

Look how many group members i have~~

Second subject : Services Marketing
Due date: 22nd June 2007
Assignment given : 25th May 2007
Really sit down and start : 20th June 2007 ( sigh...2 days before)
Leader: Larry (phew.. i can depend on him)

Phew again!!! At least i'm not the leader in this assignment. I can depend on Larry because he always put his 110% in this assignment. He wants to do well and we all know that.

Question: Create a new services marketing concept.

This means we have to set up a services marketing company that does not exist in this world yet...

Our concept, i admit, is really really unique. Mr. Brian was really impressed. ^^ The idea pops out when Larry and I was discussing among ourselves and we were laughing among ourselves on some silly imagination we had..then.. suddenly..POp!!

Our new concept company:

-AirCa$ino. Inc-

Travelling has never been this exciting!!

In this assignment, there are nothing much i have to do other than my part. I did an extra part which is not really required for this assignment but can gain extra marks i think.. I'm proud that Larry didn't put my extra part aside. Other than that, i helped him with the cover page and executive summary too. Also, i helped in burning it into a cd form.

I don't have to burn a lot of midnight oil this time. I don't have to worry about everyone's part too. This is because my groupmates are all my close friends in college and our standards does not varies that much. Not much of editing too. Everyone did beyond their own expectation also.

Below is the coverpage for Services Marketing Assignment:

The lesser the members, the better the outcome...

For our presentation, we are required to do a sketch on our new services.

Mr Brian's comment : I'm really impressed!! I can see that you guys put effort in it!!

Piccies...

Mr Brian and AirCa$ino Inc. employees and customers

Larry and I

Me


Wondering why is there a gun?


Cast:

1. Teddy : Security


2. Larry : Rich Customer


3. Chee Menn : Datuk


4. Kimberly : Datin


5. Zombie : Steward/Bar-tender


6. Hang Tow : Steward/Dealer

Equipment/props:

1. Gun


2. Bluetooth device


3. Detector


4. Cards


5. Chips


6. Chivaz : Malibu


7. Wine glasses


8. Cocktail mixer


9. Golf stick

Hang Tow and I (tht golf stick is also part of our props)

NO!!!!!


Playing with our props

Ladder
Great group members
Mr. Brian: There is teamwork. Good Job!!

Hope you guys enjoyed reading...

with love,
-kimmy--

9th June 2007

~Lunch with Angela Ng~

This might be the last time I'll be seeing Angela Ng in person. That is why no matter how tired and difficult was it to get out from my bed on a Saturday morning, I have to meet her. Do i sound like she is my lesbian partner? Laugh!! I really do heart her.. LOVE!!

I am usually late. Lee San was waiting for me patiently at the bridge leading to MidValley Megamall. I'm so so sorry again. Because of me, she has to donate to some charity people who thinks that she is a Form 3 high school student. LOL... err, is that an insult or a compliment???

We walked so fast towards Cititel lobby, because that is where we should meet up with Angela. However, we couldn't find it...How can it be? We went there before. We approached the information counter and found it immediately. We raced to the lobby and was recalling Angela's looks. We browsed through every female being in the lobby and found no Angela's sakai look. Okay, she might have gone back to her room because we are like half and hour or so late. We can't contact each other because my phone and Lee San's phone ran out of credit. We were half waiting for Angela to miraculously call.

Somehow, it felt like we are living in the stone age...

Somehow, this waiting thing is not working...

err.... not working... let's look for a public phone instead. okay, we need coins, coins and coins!!

We called her handphone three times and she didn't answer. We called Sumitha three times hoping that she is with Angela already. Nope. No answer. Where is everyone? Why aren't they reacting to their ringing phones?? What's wrong? Is there something wrong with this phone??

(banging the receiver)

Finally, we got someone who actually answer his phone. Alvin. However, he is not with Angela. So, we asked him to call Angela for us because we are running out of coins AND we can't be standing here for ages hoping that she will pick up her phone one fine day??!!

So, we sat on the couch at the lobby. Waiting and waiting. Wondering why do people stay in this hotel? Wondering how much is one night here? Is there a swimming pool here? Wow, that lady wears only branded clothes. Where are these people from? Johor? Melaka? Singapore? Okay, cut that crap... The most importantly, we were wondering whether Angela got the message that we are waiting in the lobby. We can't contact her so it is a one way communication thing. At last, Lee San can't wait no longer, she called Angela again using that public phone.

Angela said she is coming.

Lee San nearly wanted to make me her barbie doll because she took out her newly bought eye-shadow with multi-colours. She always test her make-up set on me. No..No... not here, Lee San!! Haha... Then we saw Angela with her mum. Yes!!! The wait is over!! I think i said that too early...

Angela : We gotta check out first.

Lee San & I : Oh.. okay... Take your time...

Our stomaches are making some weird sounds. It is like our stomaches are communicating with one another. Some language that we can't be able to understand.

Okay, okay.. yes, we are hungry... Really hungry.

Dragon-i is juz a few steps away.

Lee San and i looked at each other.

Both of us nodded at the same time.

We stood up, and walked towards dragon-i.

Table for two, please....

Lee San & I : Can we have that table right there? ( that table enables Angela to see us from the lobby when she comes down...)

We ordered ' siu long pau' and 'sui kao' only because it is not our lunch actually. We were really really feeling so hungry. We can't wait for Angela any longer!! We have to eat SOMETHING!! It was super-licious!!!!! Yummy...Nice!!!!!

When we saw Angela coming out from the elevator and was searching for us, we waved from the inside of the restaurant like as if we were waving to everyone out there. Hey!! Hey!!

Angela and her mum was giggling non stop because Lee San and I looked so hungry like we haven't eaten for like ages. They looked at us from the outside waiting for us. We can't even wait for Angela to come down and straight to dragon-i. The temptation is irresistable. I was so hungry till i eat like i'm at home. The soup from inside the food also come shooting out like a fountain...

Angela said that she wanna treat us lunch at Kimgary.

Again, we can't be able to find our destination. This time it is Kimgary!! Aaaarrrrgggghhhhh!!!!

We found out that the restaurant is at GE somewhere. We can only find G and not GE. Where oh where is GE?? We walked from South Court to North court, we can't find it. Angela can't even remember the place, when she just had her meal there a day ago. Goodness!!

We calmed down and Angela finally recalled it is somewhere outside. So, we tried every exit and luckily on our second try we found it!! The waiting line was quite long. The weather is also so hot!!

Non- smoking please!!!

While we were having out lunch, we chatted a lot. Memories and recent stuff. People that have changed a lot. Our friends that we once love hanging out with are now strangers to us. We can't blend in easily like we used to.

Why do people changed so fast? So drastically? Why do people let others influenced them so easily?

Sigh...

It ended with a hug and a last goodbye...

Happy Belated Birthday to Angela Ng!

Thank you for being a great friend!!

7th June 2007

@ Ruums, Kuala Lumpur

Amanda has four free tickets to go watch "So You Think You Can Dance" LIVE SHOW @ Ruums, KL.

Thanks to Amanda a lot for this experience!!

I can't describe to you how excited i was although i've never watched even one episode. So, i wouldn't know who to support and all. But, I DON'T CARE!!!! Free tickets don't fall from the sky or grow on trees. And, and, and..... it's @ RUUMS... on a Thursday night * ladies night* ehehehe~~

We were actually late due to rain and traffic jam, so Bee, my petbro drove so darn fast. According to the rules and all, the doors will be closed at 8.00pm sharp. I reached Selayang at 8pm, so imagine a Proton Putra 1.8cc speeding in the middle of KL..WOW!! sO MANY Cars and drizzling some more. Amanda showed us a short cut. That route are filled with many many holes, humps/bumps and sand and all. So, i am telling myself to go service my car as soon as possible although the servicing is not due yet.

We reached there in half an hour or so. We thought we need to plead and cry some crocodile tears but to our surprise, we were allowed to enter!! It must be because of our innocent look because the people there don't really check our tickets and they don't even know who is Amanda's friend or her mother's friend's daughter or her friend's mother's daughter..err.. that means her friend right? Err, anything -lar...

So, we've finally reached!! From left : ME, Bee, Anne and Amanda

My petbro and I

tHx to him or else none of us can get to Ruums!!

a Few pics of the contestants...

Hip Hop Rocks!!

The Top 8 COntestants that rockz the house!!

*look at that Barney*

We shouted Brancy!! We shouted Nikki!! We shouted Becky!!

We hated the crewman who was sitting in front of his camera which is perfectly blocking our view!!

We love Hip Hop, breakdance. We hate Malay Dance!!

We Loved our food, we hated our cocktails!!

French Fries with Cheese.. Not bad~

Cocktails that sux : Pina Colada & Wallbanger

Cocktails that is okay : Sex on the beach and bla bla bla..orange

(mine sux till the max, tasted like vomit, even my vomit taste much better)

I love Laundry bAR's cocktails from now on...

TIME FOR SOME 'SIAO' PICTURES

starring : Anne, Amanda & Kimmy

not siao enough

did i just made this pic a 'picture perfect'?

i think so...

I swear we were not drunk when the picture was taken!!!

Bee: I can't act 'siao' but i can act CUTE...

This is it...

Somehow, I have to agree that he is kinda cute...

but, if i have to look longer, i'm afraid i'm gonna puke..

LOL... i'm so hoping that he is not reading this though..

$$ does make a girl grin.. like that girl who is holding a RM100 note.


The thing ended at 11pm with Becky and a Malay guy voted outta the show.

Although we didn't got the camera man to 'video' us or get on the stage just to have ourselves on tv, we did get a lot of attention from the people there. Ehem... no no, i know we are pretty and handsome enough but it's not that.

Out of the blue, when we were deciding whether to stay in there a while or go home, a figure caught our attention. It was so sudden, we were caught off-guard. We screamed our lungs out!! Except for Bee, of course. He was blur~~ Everyone that has eyes and not blind and also not deaf looked at us.

Turns out that he is a friend of Anne and Amanda.

He persuaded us to stay there. He has a good point though. It's Ladies Night!! He got five girls including us to register ourselves and get stamped 'chops' on our arms. We got ourselves and a lot of other unknown guys a bottle of whiski. Yay!!

We danced for a while. Man, it was fun. Sorry, no pics on that.

I was high. I didn't really wanna leave. All of us shake and shake our body. We were kinda high. Haha.. You can't imagine us shouting outside Ruums, being so sweaty and hot. Being deaf for some time because of the loud music. Talked nonsense in the car. Took

the wrong route home!!

Friend : Stay till 4am...

Us : No, we can't. (We have a life).

- Clubbing is addictive but it's not everything -

* please listen to the song while reading the lyrics below *

From the bottom of my broken heart

by Britney Spears

"Never look back," we said

How was I to know I'd miss you so?

Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind

Where do I go?

And you didn't hear All my joy through my tears

All my hopes through my fears Did you know,

I still miss you somehow

[CHORUS:] From the bottom of my broken heart

There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know

You were my first love, you were my true love

From the first kisses to the very last rose

From the bottom of my broken heart

Even though time may find me somebody new

You were my real love, I never knew love

'Til there was you

From the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said, "please stay.

Give our love a chance for one more day"

We could have worked things out

Taking time is what love's all about

But you put a dart

Through my dreams through my heart

And I'm back where I started again

Never thought it would end

[Repeat CHORUS]

You promised yourself

But to somebody else

And you made it so perfectly clear

Still I wish you were here

[Repeat CHORUS]

"Never look back," we said

How was I to know I'd miss you so?

...................... end of lyrics...................

My THOUGHTS, My EMO-neSS...

yes, another 'emo' post. Trying not to be so emotional here anyway since now my blog has an increase number of readers. Nowadays, when i meet my friends, they will tell me not to feel so sad and depressed. I asked them how they found out, they said they read my blog.

" It's so not like you,kim.. Whatever you said in your blog is actually you?"

Here it is... the mind-blowing, unexpected answer...

YES, THE REAL ME... nyeh nyeh :p

Okay, i might be laughing and all but if you really know me, you would sense that i have a depressing life besides the fact that i have two hands, two legs, one head, a brain that is functioning, two eyes, two ears, a nose, a mouth.... all my organs are functioning. my life is perfect. i have all the five senses, i can smell, see, touch, hear and taste.

Okay, that is so LAME...

I have a family. My family love me till bits.

I have friends who genuinely care for me. I'm not like those really unfortunate girl out there who is a loner. No friends. No social life at all. Only with their novels. I have admirers. I have been in a relationship before.

So, what makes my life so depressing?

Answer : it is because of these people that i care for and love in my life. They are the ones who can make me worry like hell, they are the ones that can also hurt me the most.

I'm not perfect, you see. No one is. We are not created to be perfect. I tried to be the best friend i can ever be, the best daughter i can ever be, the best girlfriend i can ever be, the best person i can ever be.. And it's true that i've failed in all of that. How depressing. I'm trying really hard but i never succeed.

I'm starting to blame myself for everything. My self -esteem is at the lowest point now. I felt so ugly and stupid. Unwanted. A fool.

Okay, being too emotional here... but it is true.

It is june already and i'm still moving on in life. I guess so. Well, part of the 'moving on' is true. Yes, I am moving on. Really i am. The not so true part is when i found out that it still hurt. Why does it still hurt when i am seriously moving on in life, decided to let go and all? Anne said "IT'S BECAUSE YOU STILL LIKE HIM!!!

Ouch!!

I am more than a fool. Darn it!! All my decisions i've made for myself are actually hurting myself indirectly. Isn't it stupid? I'm like voluntarily telling the jerks out there to come hurt me. HURT ME!! HURT ME NOW!!!!!!!

I can give advices to people. Really good advices. Why can't i apply that useful advices back to my pathetic self??

Why are these things so bloody complicated? Why is there no RIGHT or Wrong decision? wHY does it hurt so much? Why does it have to hurt my one and only heart? Why am i still crying since you walked away? How did you change so fast? How can it be that you ruin my everything? How could you do this to me?

Forgive me for asking too much. I'm not even 20 years old yet, there are many things i don't know..

I so felt like cursing all the way, man. It's like those filthy language are spilling out from my mouth as if i'm DRooLing...

Read the lyrics below. Read.. Read...What hurts the most.

Rascal Flatts

What Hurts The Most.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again

I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ It

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

......................... end of lyrics......................

I've a confession to make. I've lied. I said that i'm okay. the truth is i'm not. I said that i've recovered but I'm not. And, it's not okay that you've found the girl in your dreams. I've lied.

Hey, i've been a good girl. I'm not selfish. I don't hate others. I give encouragement when i myself need encouragement too. I care for others too. I have shown unconditional love to those people who doesn't deserve to be loved. I don't mind being used my stupid people.So, what have i done to deserve such cruelty?

You have shown me how to cry....

We could be beautiful....

I've been missing you in a thousand ways. Have you?

yOU don't have to answer me. I know the answer.

-Feel free to break my heart-

June 2nd, 2007

My Auntie,Uncle and their family( my mum's side) from Bentong usually goes up to Genting Highlands one to two times in a month. Every year, during Chinese New Year, the whole family, and actually, every family except my family from my mum's side will go up there during that festive season. They love gambling and my auntie and uncle always wins a small amount of money whenever they go up there. And they say if you wanna win big money and have 'fatt choi' always beside you, wear a RED UNDERWEAR!! and wear a gold or bright yellow underwear, then you will be very 'wong'( in chinese, gold or yellow, means something like great and prosperous and of course wealth and good luck too^^).

So, i'm pretty sure they will be wearing either these two colours or maybe both whenever they gamble or see Uncle Lim?? I wonder if God wears an underwear? What colour would it be?

When they've spent the whole day there gambling and children playing at the outdoor theme park, they somehow know what is the meaning of the word 'tired' or rather they know what it feels like to be tired. I am not being sarcastic here but whenever they are up there, they will gamble from sunrise till sunset. Not knowing what does it feels like to be tired and hungry.

So, they travelled back down to Pj, and of course they will somehow appear at my doorstep. Yes, they did. @ 1130pm, supper.

So, my family and i changed from our pyjamas to something more appropriate. I'm the driver of course.

They said they wanted to eat steamboat. My place is famous for steamboats. My family and i feared that there will be no place for us to have supper when it is going to be 12am soon. Other than mamak, i really don't know where to bring them. So, we tried our luck... And yes!! We found one steamboat restaurant still doing business. No, i did not wear any red or gold-ish panties. Laugh!!

Including my family, their family and friends and also not forgetting my other auntie who is having fever but still wanna go up there, there are 11 of us. So, my brother went inside the restaurant and asked the waiters to get us a table for 11.

I don't know why they suddenly changed their mind and walk out of the steamboat restaurant to another steamboat restaurant down the road which is also still doing business. I'm likE WHY?? They already set up the table for us. My brother ended up saying sorry. The humiliation is unbearable~~

They didn't want steamboat already. They ordered chinese friend noodles instead. My family and i said to them many million times that we are no eating and yet, they ordered 5 BIG plates of noodles. wHEN they actually heard us, they were like,

"why never say earlier?"

"Now, who is going to finish it?"

"We (them) can't finish it, so MUCH!!"

Ironic isn't it that they kept saying they can't finish all of it while they were eating and in 5 minutes, all 5 plates are empty???

HMM....

My other auntie said that they didnt have their lunch because they keep gambling and playing the whole day. Why am i not surprised??

Let's talk about this other auntie..

While we were waiting for our noodles to come, she took out a PORK CHOP from the inside of her handbag. The pork chop is wrapped in a tissue and it is inside a plastic bag. She took it out and asked me to eat it. I didn't want to but since she kept pleading, i took the challenge.

Comment : It looks like a rock, it is as hard as a rock and yes, it taste like a rock. Okay, i don't know how does a rock taste like, but i know now....

This auntie of mine also just came back from Vietnam recently. She told us one very interesting thing.

In Vietnam, toilet...TOILET in their language is "LEI DIU".....

READ THAT IN CANTONESE....

it is actually a really bad word in chinese. However in Vietnam, it appears that it refers to the loo. the toilet.

Malaysians, of course don't feel comfortable saying that. but, the tour guide said that you have to shout it out loud because most Malaysians mumbled the word instead of saying it loudly.. LOL..

I have no guilt saying LEI DIU from now on...LOL!!!

" May I know where is the LEI DIU??"

-supper is fun-