They said :

"Kim, if i'm you, i'd rather die..."

"To an extent, kim, you are ugly and fat..."

- how i love my life, so.very.much -

Her mood : Feeling Hot!!
Yes, i feel so hot... wahahaha... not me, not me.. it is the weather!!

Mr. Sunshine, i do love you, i really do.. but it is time that you should go. It's nothing personal. It's just me. I can't take the heat anymore... You're killing me!!!

LoL...

I admit, I sux at planning. All my plans always end up ugly. I wonder why people still have faith in me. If i'm Wonderfully Superbly Good Planner, the outing to Pavilion, KL wouldn't end up with only...

... both of us??

Rebecca and I ^^ ignore the cleaner, she's talking to the wall.. Ehh???

It's just always both of us. Rebecca, please stop asking me to ruin our wonderful outing. I'm hopeless. pfft!!

You wanna push up my spectacles, right??

I'm thinking whether to start wearing contact lenses again. I really do hope that my mommie owns a printing money machine, you know!!??

College today was interesting.

Met the weirdest girl in my course. She sat beside me. Everyone else started to leave. She is well-known for her weirder-ness. Even, Rebecca!! I said.. NO NO.. YOU SIT!! DON'T LEAVE!! Rebecca gave an evil smile and left.. Thanks so much, girl!! Yay, talk about having each others' backs. Bluek!!

She, WeirdGirl kept talking and talking. I kept looking elsewhere and NOT HER. To me, she is always like a music box. You put her in a box and when you open it, she will come out and talk and talk without knowing her limit.

W. Girl : Hello, Kimberly.... I miss you
Kimmy : ehehe.. hehe.. err..
W. Girl : You know, (she starts)... i'm not good. Year 3 is suffering... yada yada yada.. (kimmy yawns LOUDLY, looked elsewhere, entertained my phone ..WeirdGirl still talking..) and my dessertation... i'm afraid i can't do. And my assignment is about company's ethics, can you help me think of one?? I can't think of any.. it is so difficult. I am so scared. you know, like pollute the environment, marine life. yada yada yada...yea, I'm waiting for my class. (Kimmy: did i even asked?) And... you know my lecturer, Ms X, i don't know whether she is teaching me. I hope she is teaching me but then i am afraid i can't understand. You know, my Principles of Marketing, i failed the midterm. And, my boyfriend *yes, she HAVE a BF* said that i'm good at Marketing and not Finance. YOU must have the interest if not you cannot do the assignment. How are you going to do the assignment when you are not interested in the subject?? Next time come out and work, it will be difficult. *YAWN EVEN LOUDER, she still didn't get it* Haha.. DO you have a boyfriend, Kimberly????
Kimmy : (my eyes wide opened!!) Err, do i look like i have a BF?? What makes you think I DESERVED one?? *rendah diri, wei!!*
W. Girl : Your complexion so nice. Look at my face! Dot here and there. (frankly, her complexion is so much better).
Kimmy : Waa, you think just because of my complexion i have a BF??
W. Girl : And, your body nicer...
Kimmy : What??!!! *that sound so lesby... used my handbag to cover my body, even though i know that i'm fully dressed...
W. Girl : From the last last time i've seen you, you are so much much better than last time...
Kimmy : Oh, thank you but if you really want to know, I do not have a BF.
W. Girl : WHAT!!?? Still don't have a boyfriend!!
Kimmy : *wth!!* err.. no, i'm not as lucky as you. *fake smile*
W. Girl : Aiya, you think got BF very nice ah?? My BF and i got a lot of problems.. And there she goes again...... His mom very conservative, my dad asked me to be respectful. I asked him to go for my CG's Ball cuz I want him to go with me. Which girl don't wanna have a date, right?? Then i took him to this seminar on what is love. How to show love. Not sex la, yada yada..
Kimmy: *i interrupted* How to show love??
W. Girl : *she didn't answer my question* He very stupid 1. Don't know how to show love to me. You know, in the year 2005, i forced him to give me flowers on Valentine's Day. He don't want actually but I must force him. I also forced him to buy me flowers in the year 2006. After he attend the seminar i asked him to, in the year 2007, he automatically gave me flowers.
Kimmy : Maybe because you forced him for the last two years?? sarcastic, eh??
W. Girl : Must force. Which girl don't want flowers on V-Day? I will be very jealous, you know.
Kimmy :err.. err... *i need to escape from this conversation* i think your class starts already. BYE BYE..

and i ran away. literally.

met up with another normal friend today. JY.

JY : Kim, i can't recognise you today. you look different. Like you have a glow in you.

... my mood swings easily. really. i'm more than complicated ...

i'm the reason for the word complicated


all smiling look
another sec, all emo look

and the next sec...all sakai look

God is Love. He always gives me the fatherly feeling. Just like how my daddie treat her little girl. If i be good, daddie will plant me with a kiss and a hug. In contrast, if I disobey my earth Dad, the One up there will also show the same black face. I've learned to obey. If I obey and leave everything unto Him, everything will be according to His plans. Whether the plans are the ones that you like or dislike, i understand that He knows what is best for me. Do you think that He likes letting us go through those hardship? He wepts when those problems hurts us so. Only He knows what is best for us. He made us so that He can Love us. How much more can I ask for?

I've my own complications. i Feel that i'm a hipocrite lately. I dislike someone lately. I feel that this someone is a faker. I feel that this someone dislikes me and chose to be fake around me. This someone made me feel fugly. yes. FUGLY. that is worse than UGLY. I feel so down when i'm with this person. I don't even wanna hang around with this person. Mood Spoiler!!!!!!!

but, who am i to judge others when God judges us??

Love others, i remembered.

So, what can i do?? I tried my best to not dislike this person. but, it turns out to be more of like an act i am pressured to put up. I ended up feeling like a hypocrite. People said that i think too much. I wanted to believe that, but my instinct tells me a different thing. I am torned between my instinct and my rationality.

I am so tired of dancing around the fire.

Do you have the feeling that you should just follow you heart. Do what you feel comfortable. And never regret.

I regretted.

I followed my heart and now, i ended feeling more of an idiot and a fool every single day.

Who am i to kid?? My nature kills me. What the heck??
Why still those butterflies in me?

Is there anyway where i can just be myself and not be judged?

Myself??


Passport picture

Don't look at me-lah.

-sweat it out, kim-

xoxo Happy Valentine's Day xoxo

I Corinthians 13

Valentine's Day is a day of love,

For showing that we care,

And if we read the Bible,

God describes love there:

If we speak like celestial angels,

From heaven up above,

All our words mean nothing

If we don’t have Christian love.

Love is patient, love is kind;

It doesn’t brag or boast;

Love conquers pride and envy;

It is never self-engrossed.

Love is not rude or angry;

Forgiveness counters wrong;

Love stays away from evil;

It sings a truthful song.

Love is full of trust and hope;

It always perseveres;

Love never fails;

It’s faithful;

To the Bible it adheres.

And if you give this kind of love

To your special Valentine,

You’ll be loving right in harmony

With God’s own sweet design.

To all my forever Valentine Friends...

Valentine Friend

Valentine’s Day is all about

Special feelings warm and fond,

And friend, I knew right from the start

We had a very special bond.

Our time together is a gift;

You’re interesting and warm and fun!

And when I need to talk and share,

I think of you, friend; you’re the one.

We’re always true and real together.

We have no reason to pretend.

I’m thankful that you’re in my life,

My trusted, cherished Valentine friend.

p/s: my dearest all, you are all like brothers and sisters to me. I can't thank God enough for blessing me with so many sweet people like you. Thank you for sharing my joy, my tears. Thank you for being so true to me. Thank you.

Lastly, to my sweeetheart, Lil' Angel..

All The Things I Love About You

I love you for the warm, sweet affection

in your eyes

whenever you look at me,

and the special smile

you save only for me.

I love that you always seek

to have your body close to mine,

reaching out to touch,to hold my hand,

to wrap your arms around me.

I love how you show me you care

by looking for ways

to make my life easier and more comfortable.

I love that when I ask you to do things,

you try to do them

instead of thinking me demanding.

I love that your favorite place is near me,

that you’d rather be with me

than anywhere else.

I love you for more reasons

than this page has space to write,

so I’ll try to tell you and show you in person

all the things I love about you.

p/s: We have been through a lot. Our journey together was short but it was loving, strong and genuine. Our memories together will forever be cherished. You will always have a special place in my heart. Love.

credits to Joanna Fuchs

Happy Valentine's to all

Love, Kimberly

xoxo

xoxoxo

My Heart Melts

He is my fav. cuzzy

<3

Teardrops on my Guitar - Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about

And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down and maybe

Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

............................. end of lyrics ..........................

I miss you, dear. I love you very much. I really wanna see you.

Very sweet, eh?

brother : Go die-lah you!!

pfft!!!

-pathetic self-

Christmas 07 Dinner @ Teck Wah's
i'm just so superbly lazy.. eat tht!!

-Piccies-

Using my new Nokia 2630

Kim and Melissa

Yes, we do look alike. Like sisters.

David and Sarah

The younger ones. Great people.

Love my longer hair. sigh.

The dinner at Teck Wah's was fun!! Why??

Because my table is the "Funnily Weird Table"

I was seated with Melissa, Sarah, dAvid and three mentally-illed men.

They are the Very Very Important People:

1st man -> "The Drunkard" who wears pink t-shirt
2nd man -> "The I-don't-love-talking-and-don't-even-bother-to-ask"
3rd man -> "The You-are-being-poisoned-and-I-Love-ruining-your-appetite"

Imagine having dinner with them. The feeling is like "Let's have THEM for dinner instead!!" Aaarrggghhh

Yes, I didn't have much appetite when there is someone who kept saying that there is poison in the food, a drunkard who took my number (i feel so stupidly stupid) and the most bearable of all is the man who don't talk AT ALL.

lol.

The dinner was filled with laughter when there are so many comedy going around our table. I was filled wih Joy at that moment...

The AfterDinner @ Laundry Bar, The Curve

Zmay and Kim

Kim and Melissa

Zmay and Kim (dim lightings)

There she goes....

xoxo