Even if I thought it's a new start, a new beginning, a fresh one, I will tend to fall back into that deep hole all by myself. It is just awfully annoying for me, what about you? I long so much to start anew but my sincerity is just never sufficient. I desire to make an impact, something that I would be proud of, to be of importance in this place but it is me, myself that is hindering me. I procrastinate so much I just wanna hit myself hard. What the hell is wrong with me?

I'm not going anywhere.

I'm never there.

Shit me.

Just drown yourself, kim.