After my finals have ended on the 13th of June, 2008, my parents took me to Kedah for the first time to see my sister. If you readers don't know, my sis went to Kedah last April to study.

Yea, i really need the get away from everything in Kay Elle (KL). Finals was not even okayyy..

So, how's Kedah you would ask. Haha. Let's just say, It was better than okay. Laugh out loud!!

The journey up north was pain in the arse. Hours of travelling on a highway with only bushes/trees/palm oils plantations/paddy fields on each side of the highway. I'm thinking that Malaysia has too many trees, now. When we have reached Sungai Petani, called my sister "Oi, coming to get you, get ready" Her Uni is huge!! Seeing that it was my very first time stepping on to Kedah land, my sis brought me around and the first stop is her apartment. We have to climb around ten flights of staircases to get to her apartment. Thank god for the bit of stamina i gained from regular jogs, i wasn't that breathless compared to my parents. Sis's room is Really clean, wei!! I am very satisfied with the cleanliness of her apartment, her Uni and even more impressed with the security. Students there have to register and de-register themselves whenever they enter or exit the Uni and also inform where they are heading to and what date and time they will return.

After that, we went for lunch at SP, shopped at tesco for some necessities and soon after we checked into a hotel. The first thing i did was to search for the swimming pool. That is the essence of any hotel, okay!! Yes, they have a swimming pool and i quickly changed and the next thing i know is that my siblings and i are swimming and relaxing in the pool. Wow, i really love it because it has been a while that i ever touched chlorine water. nyehehe.

Food is terrible, forgive me kedah-rians. Maybe it is because we do not know where to search for good food. whatever.

Right after dinner, my parents and granny went back to the hotel room to clean up before getting into bed. Us, kids didnt. We went to the pool side and do some catching up with each other. My, I tell you folks... it was good. We chatted so long till Mom called and asked us to get back to the hotel room and i'm like "Hello, Mom.. we are just downstairs and besides you can see us from your window." LOL.

Of course we didnt go back.

We camwhored. Haha.

The funny thing is when we wanna start to take piccies, the beautiful lights around the pool just shut off!! We were like What the Heck??!!!!

While getting back to the hotel room... of course we have to snapped some more.

When we've finally got back to the hotel room, we just can't stop taking pics. And we tried to be creative.

Sis used her phone while bro uses his too but with flash

Turned out nice, heh??

Love you, sis...

xoxo

If you readers scroll down, you will see in the left column there is a calendar
(her-can't-wait-for-the-day calendar).

So you guys who are looking forward to meet up with me, these are the days in which i am most probably be busy catching up with others. Text me, notify me, private message me, email me or write to me the days you guys wanna reserve me. I'll try to slot you in, somewhere, somehow. I know, i sound like i'm so whoshethinksheis-ish, but the truth is, i really do want to catch up with all of you whenever there is an opportunity but i also need time for myself.

I've prepared almost (i think) everything that i could but not my heart. I am not prepared for my transition to Perth yet. I am having mixed feeling altogether from excitement to fear and sadness. So, i'm on my knees, begging for you guys to give me some day off. Let me have a few days for myself- gather my feelings.

I am really exhausted.

I have been so busy right after i'm done with finals. Mom took me out everyday to buy this and that to pack. Mom treated and cooked good food everyday because she thinks that i'm not going to enjoy good and healthy food once im in Perth. Friends took and is taking me out to here and there and of course eat and eat. So, you see... I am the perfect pig. Fat and pink. Eat me for a change. muahahaha..

I went to DHL, ss2 today to courier some documents to my Uni in Perth. I am very satisfied with the customer service being delivered to me and my mom. Clap clap!! I've got student price discount, I've got my name being registered in their system, my mom also gets discount and assistant if she wanna send any documents or parcel to me in the future and the most important of all, I really get good service from the people there. Bravo DHL!!

After having an enjoyable time in DHL, Mom took me to a Japanese Restaurant opposite DHL (she is feeding me good food again :p ) for lunch. Frankly, I've been to Japanese restaurant quite a number of time lately. There is this once in Rakuzen @ Desa Parkcity, another once in One Utama -the new shop with long waiting lines and now my second time in SS2 Sushi sumthing.. Haha.. not into remembering restaurant names. Due to influence from LeeSan, I've been eating Cha Soba for many many times in all the many many once(s) @ all the Japanese Restaurant i've been to. I feel like i'm made of Soba now.

Upon returning home, Mom said let's go try out the new saloon "Poh Ling" in our area. She said I must go trim my hair before i leave to Perth for I am most probably not going to trim my hair for a minimum one year. So, yes... I chopped off my hair. My long hard effort. Aahhh, whatever it is, what is done is done. No picture, you'll see it in some later posts.

After a satisfactory haircut, came home, took out my empty luggages, opened my wardrobe, grab all the clothes i can possibly reach and sorted it out on the floor. It was a mess!! My brother came home and his first sentence was "What is happening in here??" I am packing. Do not disturb me unless you wanna help. My mom took out the ironing board and iron everything and placed it nicely in the luggage bags. I did helped, okay.. a bit. Well, i roughly counted and i have 16 new tops plus some old tops, around 20 plus. I wanna hit 30 pieces of tops so that i can wear different type of tops everyday in a month. Mom said that i'm crazy blah blah.. well, i still think she did hid some of my other new clothes she bought. So now, my wardrobe is quite empty with old old old clothes in there, therefore, if i ever come back to KL, i am so going to have not many options on what i'm going to wear. Mom don't let me buy new clothes anymore!!

so, i still have a long long list of stuff i need to buy and do. No time. No time!!! See? How to have time for myself to gather my feelings when there is so much to do?????

And yea, since i've packed new and nice clothes, those who are going to see me will most probably see me in same sets of clothes in the following weeks. LeeSan, if you're reading this... yes, the same set of clothes for both Singapore and Malacca trip. LOL.

Anyway, while i was packing i told my mum that there are things i wish i could bring to Perth.

Things (not people) i wish i could bring to Perth:

• Durian- come on... i love durians..
• BQ-my labrador breed dog - i will miss all his cute actions
• TV-i will miss Astro
• My toilet especially my toilet bowl - i can't do big business in any other
• Mamak food and beverages
• Chinese food and beverages
• My house - space, comfort and privacy
• My phone number - have to change number, i don't like.
• My lifestyle here, my comfort zone

So, i'm off to Singapore later, and then to Malacca after that. I hope i will update this blog here on all of my farewell trips and occassions.

p/s: if you have any of my pictures in you camera on any trips, please send to me, okayz.... thnks.. i will, i promise to get a facebook account so that it is easier for the whole wide world. HAHA... i hope so. I am a slow learner. Pardon me~

till then... muackz!!!!

xoxo

Got tagged by Anne a very very long time ago...
Before the dinosaurs come haunting me, let's just settle this...

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
late twenties...

2. If you can turn into anyone, who do u wish u can turn into?
hmm.... alessandra ambrosini.. hot,sexy and rich... muahaha...

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
Anne, Manda, and Fawa because they are my piggy buddies and i miss them so much right now.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
A place where there is a table and chair with two bottles of wine (Australian and French, Red and White), facing the beach with the sound of the ocean waves and also with the wind blowing at me - with no problems to think of...

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
be 2Bs - Brilliant, beautiful and therefore rich!!

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes and it never fails to cheer me up all the time...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Never-ending Blessings

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
10% to God, 50% for personal use, 40% to invest!!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
depends on the situation and who is it..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
anne is a creative person (She can draw and design very well), she is a great person to hang out with and most important of all.. she is a beautiful person both in inside and outside!!

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
love and trust

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
evil people who only values $$ and betrays and uses their friends for their own benefits.

13. What is your ambition?
to be a judge

14. If you have a flaw, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
A true friend will tell the truth about your flaws too!!

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Loved ones, salvation

16. What would you most want to achieve right now?
get good grades in order to get good cert and good job by god's grace and mercy

17. What are the things that you're never good at?
games and sports

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
my vulnerability

19. What would you want to be after you're dead?
go to heaven-lar

20. what do you do if your lecturer is "pissed off "with you and he/she is marking your final paper?
write an apology "sandwich letter" to him/her. play with words *wink* and pray!!

Tag:Whoever who wants to do this.

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yes, i did pissed off a lecturer who is marking my final paper.

so, what can i do?

1st ->> panic...

2nd - >> cry...

3rd ->> sigh...

4th ->> pray

5th ->> enjoy my remaining days

while i still can

gosh.... no words can explain how afraid and worry i am now.. i'm just hoping for the best right now.

hope & faith

xoxo

I wanna pack it up,

crush it down,

push it in a pill,

and feed it to you every damn day,

and eventually,

you'll get it.

winter 2007

you played a bedtime story on me.

my plan backfired and i played with fire. unintentionally.

Dear Nothing,

You are nothing to me now. Not even your signature smile can brighten up my days now. Oh, i WAS definitely interested in you, but too bad that i found out the other side of you. You do not believe in being sincere, do you?? I am so not interested to play games with you anymore because, let me repeat myself, you are nothing to me now. And just so you know, you look darn pathetic now no matter how much you melted my heart before. You, my shining star, has just turned everything to darkness. Pfft...

Yours truly,

A very disgusted friend to you.

p/s: i just found out that you are 'darn rich gay heartbreaker'

xoxo

Like a rose, I am wilting and dying.

I feel so bitter, exhausted and getting paranoid.

I'm falling from grace, I'm fading away.

Everything is falling apart. everything. every single thing that matters to me. every part of me is being stabbed. and my wounds heals very slowly.

emptiness always has its place in every minute of my life.

God, i would fall on my knees and pray till i turn to dust for you to hug me again and tell me that you love me and that all these are going to an end. I promise that every tear i cry is a sincere one.

As much as I disappoint others, others disappointed me as much as i did. I'm really upset over everyone and not forgetting myself. No one is perfect that i know, but expectations and trust betrayed me.

My daddie and i had a conversation.

Kimmy: Dad, what should i do?? What would you do?

Daddie : Kimberly, you have to stop sulking and move on. This is life. Learn from this, take this as a lesson learned.

Kimmy: How to manage this now?? How would you manage this??

Daddie: You have to show grace and mercy to others. What did the bible say?? Forgive and forget.

Kimmy: Dad, i know but you have to understand that i'm deeply hurt.

Daddie: Kimberly............ you've got to be humble.

yes, i feel like a lone ranger right now. Every juice in me has been squeezed out. I've tried very hard to do everything in my capability to save the situation i was forced to be in. The least everyone else could do is to support me in it, but they didnt or should i just say that they are incapable, weak, useless, stupid, ignorant and everything else. i'm not being harsh, it is a fact. i really do not know how or what to do now. Drop the ego, kim.. puhleasseee... this is not ego, it is called disappointment mixed with hurt. I have a feeling, i'm the cause of all the ugly scenes that is going to happen very soon. i am so frustrated at everything.

One great situation: I came early to college to look for a parking space but i can't find one and i realized that i'm going to be late for class, so i parked somewhere far. I walked quickly to college, and i saw many many parking spaces laughing at me. Great!! I arrived late to class and earned a glare from the lecturer. After class, went to get my car, not surprising, i saw a white paper decorating my windscreen- a summon. RM100 for illegal parking. Darn. Can't those MPPJ have some sense that our kindergarten has limited parking space? I am to the extent of burning anyone in that uniform alive. While cursing, i grabbed my lunchbox hoping to at least cure my hunger. Yes, another unfortunate event.. My lunch was exposed to the air, and yea, no lunch. Woohoo... and i believed god do not believe in me using a mechanical pencil, i bought 3 mechanical pencils for the past 3 weeks because they refuse to function when i get them home.

Don't get surprised if you read the paper tomorrow and it says : "Girl Dies of Frustration and Bitterness"

It has been a long silence ever since i told you that i needed you.

I would really wanna know if there is something or anything left between the both of us now??

Besides bitterness and pain?

Nothing??

Question to self:

If there’s nothing left,why can’t I just walk away from the spot you left me crying?

*the fading light within me needs to be rekindled by a spark.*

xoxo

hEY ppL!! it's my 21st!!!

it's Lok's 21st...

and he called me to plan WITH him,
so we decided to go to Sanctuary and all our classmates are invited..

so folks, these are some random pictures.. (too tired @_@)

p/s: i'm so sorry for not updating, this semester is exceptionally tough. i'm stupid, hello...

Lok's 21st @ Sanctuary, Curve
Date : err.. April 15th, 08

Acting cute pageant

Kunshan was drunk the whole night. he was screaming at some point.

Soon Seng and Melissa came after 12am ( they're fun!!!)

Lok & his co-planner

their quote: "even though we are drinking, we must stay healthy"

(they did push ups on and off the whole night, waiters are LOL.. oh yea, kunshan was still sober -swtness-)

i love the blurry one though..

birthday boy showing some moves

they swept Lok off his feet *happiness*

where is photoshop when i need one??

Rebecca & Lok

Lee San and Lok duet-ing

rebecca : come on kit, open up, the ice must go in..

michal kissing lee san (the lights censored it)

bro and sis??

brennan and hp take-2 for the night ( they are being punished 2wice)

read the words on the cake
it says : CUTIE LOK, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LOVELY FRIEND

cheers~~

Lok with all the girls in red (he is a lucky boy that night)

before Sanctuary, we were having dinner @ Vivo

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i miss my sister so much. she is doing fine in kedah right now.

a picture of me and her wearing glowy sticks during glo's 2nd anniversary

nicole, if you're reading this,

the house is superly quiet, your absence is deeply felt.

lee san and rebecca, remember about the black dress??


the dress is beautiful

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update pics of Easter drama : Champion

This is how i am suppose to look as a Devil

this is daniel the pure devil

and the lead devil is Chris

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me??

me, before i apply blood all over my lips

is easy to imagine actually, you can see me looking like this soon..

-panda kimmy-

??????????????????????

Just to inform you guys...

-i really wanna eat this american chocolate cake-


visa application -> ?? -> 11kg -> forget perth

come to a conclusion yourself. it's easy.

i find it hard to breathe for weeks. i need to breathe.

busy + stress = suffocation

kimmmm, hang on.

this semester, no mercy

God, please have mercy on me. please do. by Your grace, Father.

i need my sunshine too. Mr. gloomy, go away.. shoo!!

xoxo

I thought i'm weird but it seems that I'm not alone at ALL.

Was chatting with Michal and Rebecca at the cafeteria.

I've no idea how the conversation leads to this:

Kimmy : I count tiles when im bored in the toilet...

Michal & Rebecca : Same SAME!!!!

(high 5!!)

Kimmy : and i thought i'm weird...

Michal : If i run out of tiles to count, i will start counting the boxes on the floor around the toilet bowl

Rebecca : (excitedly) oh oh, my toilet' tiles have design on them. So i will analyse for the differences and similarities and will try to do some 'photoshop editing'.. you know, like trying to cut part of the design and try to paste it to the other design see if it is fitting or not.

Kimmy: wow... you girls are weirdier than me, wei.. How about with number plates?? I will do addition, subtraction.

Michal and Rebecca : Same!! but we also do multiplication and division too.

Kimmy : '_______' do u also do differentiation, probabilities.. dy/dx?? (sarcasm is my middle name)

...

(cannot, i must win this conversation. I wanna be the weirdest of them all!)

kimmy sracthed her head thinking of other weird things she does...

Kimmy : How about this... I will imagine my car is hopping when i see shadows of trees and lamp-post on the road.

Rebecca : Me too!!

Kimmy : ...... and i will imagine that a piano with two pedals are the same as an automatic car. The accelerator will make the piano go louder.

Michal and Rebecca : err.. wow..

Anyway, I have a Marketing test next monday.

Kelly : Miss, what area should we focus on for the test?

Lecturer : I don't know....

the whole class looked at the clueless lecturer...

'_________________'

kimmy goes : huh???

so, i was going to start on my revision for Marketing cluelessly.. and then i took out a yellow paper and a marker pen and wrote this:

i pasted it on the wall at home.

"i still find it hard that i'm everything a pig can be"

few misc. piccies...

this is a picture of me with the World's Smallest Monkey

even my face is bigger than the monkey... great!! (kim.. it is the WORLD'S SMALLEST monkey..)

anne and me camwhoring b4 we depart to Sanctuary

this is a picture of me camwhoring

mum says this one not nice..

this is nicer she said

btw, i just found out that my mum knows how to sing Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie

great mum. cool mum.

and, i've got my offer letter to Perth, Australia already.

I have mixed emotions. Excited, Fear and Sadness all together.

I wanna eat rojak.

ps: i am so honoured to be your supportive push-up bra!!! you know who you are...

okayz, back to Marketing. I.love.you.michael porter.

xoxo